Friday, July 26, 2002
well, this looks like it will be another busy day of packing. I'm making some progress. I woke up early, because I was excited.
Of course, the first thing I do every morning is check my email. Since I was already sitting at my desk, I started my packing by trying to clean off my desk. The detritus of my last year of college had piled up alarmingly.
But as I was searching through which things to keep and which to throw away, I found some scraps of musings. I surprise myself sometimes by writing down really great interesting stuff, stuff that is mysterious and possibly profound. I find that when I read it later, the meaning is somewhat opaque, as if it were written by another person entirely. I don't know what the author was thinking when she wrote it. And the author was me!
Here is a little scrap. Maybe I'll post some more of this type of thing, if I run across them again.
Notes from a scrap of paper, probably from 2001, fall
I have fought so hard to learn what I know. I fought hard, but at the point when I actually learned what I know I had, for that moment, stopped fighting.
I don’t know all of what I know yet. But when people ask me questions I know the answers to, I am often embarrassed. The answers are rushing out my mouth; I want to share the joy of finding the answer with someone else. But I wonder if the person asking really wants to know the answer. If he wanted to know it is obviously there [waiting to be found out]. But if he only wants affirmation that the answer is unknowable, my giving an answer will anger him.
Sometimes, I only shrug.
posted by Murphy 7/26/2002
Thursday, July 25, 2002
TIme is going by a little fast, now.
It looks like I will be moving to LA. A law firm is about to make me a job offer...I sort of gave them the impression that I already live there.
That made it easier to get the job.
I am pretty excited, and I have a lot to do.
This is the reason why I have not written on my blog for a while. When my mind is whirling, it's a little bit hard to take the time to be contemplative and write all these great thoughts down.
I guess I don't have time to write anything long and profound tonight, either.
I am sorting through all my books. LORD, I have a lot of books.
I cannot take them all. I suspect whatever apartment I find next will be smaller, anyway. So..I have a new theory:
If I can easily find a book in any library, I should not have my own copy.
There can be exceptions, of course. Especially sentimental books, for example. Or exceptionally beautiful books.
Since every member of my family is moving this month (except my youngest brother), I have had some time to think about the fact that there must be some way to reduce possessions. Really. All my stuff takes up so much space.
Shouldn't I be able to outsource some of my storage to the local library?
posted by Murphy 7/25/2002